supergoddess writes

I may not show my truest feelings, but I hope you know I do love you…

Sentimental mode struck me today. Maybe because I thought I couldnt fit
it your world. But then I realized, we share our own world, so why
should I worry about anything? But really, I have been so happy from
right from the very start and I couldn’t ask for anything more perfect
than this. Too bad my mom didn’t get to see you again. Argh.

I need to write something. I don’t know. Work requires me to write but
not that much as I did back in college. I feel as if the passion is
slowly losing. But oh heck, I love writing, I shouldn’t be too affected
by the bug.

I’d be a Godmother tomorrow to Ariadne (Shang’s baby girl!) Haven’t
seen her yet though ’cause its been pretty hectic at work or because of
dates, I have been going home a little later than I was expected to. So
tomorrow’s a pretty big day, seeing my xzeno family again, and I would
be introducing my honey to them. (^___^)

but before going to bed, I’m wishing my friend BRENTI a very merry and happy Birthday!

Gotta go sleep! muah! =)

I have treated the relationship as a silent one because I don’t want to ruin everyone. It’s not as to being sorry for what happened, but for what had lost and for having the right decisions for myself.

I may have feelings for you before. Thinking that you could be the first guy to introduce to my parents as the "first official boyfriend", I anticipated and waited for months. But I was feeling hopeless and alone. That it’s better if I would settle my life by my own and not to wait for you anymore. I’m stubborn that I couldn’t take being the last priority. It could have been better, it could’ve worked out (no offense hon), but I guess fate didn’t really want me to be yours but I have really tried hard to understand. It’s just that sometimes, you have to give up.

TO HON:

I’m sorry that I kept you waiting. I could’ve started this earlier but i promised my heart to someone before. But now that you have proven that this deserves a second (or technically) a third chance, I am up for it. I couldnt ask for a better boyfriend. I have seen the ups and downs of this relationship, and I’m very much happy that you share your dreams with me. I am really thankful for all your efforts and patience, going from south to north just to make sure I get home safe, for holding my hand when I feel tired, for kissing my fears when I’m afraid of losing you, for erasing my worries at work when everything seems hazy, for letting me see the sunset even with my eyes closed and for the love that you have been giving me for the past months.

I may be paranoid but you still accepted my madness, I may not be perfect but I seem to be the most perfect girl when I look into your eyes. I may be afraid of the thought of you going back to her, but when you repeatedly assured me that you would always be with me, all my worries are erased in a blink of an eye. And I am grateful for that.

Now the thing with the parents, my mom already told me na "kapag naging boyfriend mo si Patrick, blah blah blah." Goodluck, pero at least may thought na ganun. hehehe.

And I really pray that this would last a lifetime, as I have said, I have a good feeling about it. Thanks for everything, all these make up for the lost years. I so love you.

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Went to Makati Shang this afternoon to attend the Hongkong Tourism Board Forum. Mam Lorie was supposed to go with Joedy and Mam Amor, but she let me go there because I was envious of Joedy seeing Mickey and Minnie Mouse (yeah, pathetic, I know!) They featured Hongkong Disneyland, and I’m really hoping to go there someday. Picturing the Disney Hollywood Hotel makes me have goosebumps and all. Also had my picture taken with the rat couple and freebies galore. (^__^)

After that, I forced him to meet me at glorietta. It’s just that the place still feels strange for me and I’m not used to going there. Anyhoo, I’m glad to go there. The perks of my work! hehehe

Gotta sleep already. Am tired. buzzing off now.. (^____^) mwah!

I never liked Superman. Dahil isa kong praning and super paranoid before.

But after watching the movie, (of course with Brandon Routh), I kinda liked the story. Not to mention Lois Lane being a journalist, and a Pulitzer Prize winner. Hence, I find myself relating to it, with Superman being in vamoose for five years.

Okay, so here’s the situation, Hon has been gone for almost four years. I am a journalist (well, technically because of my degree). When he came back to me, I am kind of loving someone. Come on, just bear with me on this. I’m just being sentimental and all. Guess that’s what love’s doing for me.

Went out with Brenti and Mela this Saturday afternoon. Well because I’m a free woman today, I have to be with my friends’ company. I just missed  them because this would probably the longest time that we three have been separated. And like everyone who knows us could ever guess, we still had the chismisan part of classmates and all. But nothing gross or anything, haha. And somewhere in Robplace, there’s this Massageforless chairs that costs 20 pesos for three minutes. After having lunch ( a divine Supreme Pizza at Sbarro’s), we tried the massage chairs, talked about going to Starcity and etcetera, etcetera.

There, it was super fun because the last time we went to watch a movie was months ago or maybe a year ago, I’m not sure. It’s just great that I got the chance to spend my time with them again. So I proposed that now that were earning from work (or Mela as the Sosy high!), we should go out once a month. Maybe next time, I could push my StarCity plan. Actually I had a Starcity visit two Fridays ago because of the holiday and all.

And the funny thing was, I actually missed him because I promised that my Saturdays are for him, but he had this event he should be going to, and Superman’s his favorite movie. But then I had to watch it first, without him, when he begged me to go with him before. haha. Now he’s green with envy, though he could still watch it again naman.hehe.

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Work for the week would be kind of like a breeze. My boss would be gone for a week and two days, ergo, I could leave early, do things more smoothly and go on dates. Though I have to do things for our seniors because a tour would be coming up. I even asked Mam Chat if I could join the briefing because Father Lucio would be there, and I kind of like to see him because he’s a part of AB and college and UST. Connect it, I’m not in explaining mood right now.

Have to go. can’t be stressed anymore. It’s going up my system and it’s not good for me. Nytie nyt!