supergoddess writes

I always thought that doing our thesis was the most exhilirating stuff we did. Well, it did force me to have pressure attacks but then, doing it was basically fun at the same time considering that our research is about blogs and we are pro-blogs. But then, this week happened.

The State of Emergency isn’t over yet. We had 4 days of hiatus. I was forced to feel that rest but then I wanted to continue it. Now I’m not interested to do my paperwork because I’m not driven to the things that i have to do anymore. I tried reading Memoirs of a Geisha and stuck my nose to the computer to download stuffs needed for a project. But then, I haven’t started the project since I don’t have some materials with me and my mind has difficulties functioning.

Good thing I haven’t had a nervous breakdown yet.

My Xzeno friends are planning to go to Enchanted Kingdom before graduation. I kinda said yes although I haven’t consulted with my mom yet. But I’m hesitant since they’re planning to do it before our graduation. And believe me when I say I am that superstitious. Or let’s just put it in a context that I’m really trying to be safe so my years of slaving in school wouldn’t go down the drain. You know, i wanna graduate, get a job, get married, have kids, etcetera etcetera. i just don’t wanna gamble on something that’s a 50-50 percent thing. (although I know that my ultimate crushie would probably be there.)

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One week and then were off to go. Time flies that fast. I just wish that by April or June, I could already snag a job, then and there. I just wanna apply my craft to a job that suits my course. And not be a telephone/customer service assistant. I wanna make a difference in writing and especially doing that passion to create bigger things. You know what I mean.

Gotta go make better things happen. Yay! Peace Out!

I have loads to do, but haven’t (yet) started. I feel as if I’m only accustomed to counting the things I do, but when time comes that I have to face them all, I get lazy or sleepy doing them. My friends already told me not to slack off since this isn’t the best time to do so. Been trying to finish "Memoirs of a Geisha"though I haven’t done reading "By the River Piedra, I Sat Down and Wept". The e-book just excites me since were planning to watch Zhang Ziyi play the role of Chiyo. And I’m already on the 200th page. YAY!

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I’m not political but since pur country’s on the STATE OF EMERGENCY, might as well say my mind’s view. —I always liked President Arroyo, until this morning. Napaka-chaotic, I woke up feeling sorry for everything that’s been happening. If it’s really necessary for her to step down, why can’t she just give up her position?

But anyway, there’s no one suitable for it either. And that sucks even more.

…mapatiwakal na lang kaya tayo lahat? yay!

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Jowk lang. everyone knows I’m up for peace and order. I just wish this country has more of that.

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My mom and dad, together with some friends went to Baguio tonght to witness the Panagbenga Festival. Ang daya talaga! I’ve been wishing to return and watch it too, but since time doesn’t permit me to have a vacation, I really can’t be bitter about it.

PAG NAKA-GRADUATE AKO, MAGBO-BORACAY AKO! OR BETTER YET, GUIMARAS ISLAND ULET! BWAHAHAHA

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Have to go. blah

I didn’t think it was possible to feel alone even when you’re online.

Well, everyone on my YM is unavailable. One is opened but she’s having an internship. Out of boredom, I tried looking at Lovehappens and now my tummy hurts of laughing to some guy’s poses. Well, its better than dwell on useless stuffages I’m encountered to meet at this time of the day. (read: looking at ex’s friendster)

Had a non-productive day. Called Philippine Basketball Association office today but said they didn’t have contacts with Mr. Ed Cordero anymore. Where on earth could we ever find him?!? Last resort is to barge into Ms. Cabral’s office at the Alumni Affairs and ask even for his address. At least we could pass something before Tuesday.

It’s my brother’s birthday this 23. And a friend’s too. I just wish them both a Happy Natal Day and be great in their lives.

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I wonder if my mom knows i’m snucking out just to access the Internet this late. I feel as if I’m always never caught. Not that i wanna be, but she saw me a while ago reading in the dark. And she told me to stop doing it because I should’ve done it earlier.

Anyway, I’m excited with Meri and Elizel’s plan of doing a 4jrn1 website. At least, there’ll be a little something when we leave the Ivy halls of our Alma Mater.
Now I could feel more pressure as our professors are dawning it into our systems. They gave more pending works that make us worry whether we’re gonna be stuck in UST forever or line up to march at PICC on March 29. It sucks to think that we have barely two weeks in class and consider that this week is the last regular class week. Time is indeed short. (uy brent, I’m finally getting kinda nostalgic. hope you won’t roll your eyes too.) (^___^)

catchya again later!

kamusta naman ang survey na ito?hehehe.

im having loads of fun just answering diff questions. made me think. anyway. i just reposted this. gtg. (^____^)

01. PAANO KUNG BIGLA KAYONG
NAGKITA NG
EX MO?
* wala lang. isnaban siguro. well, depends
kung sinong ex.nyahaha!

02. SINO SA MGA EX MO ANG GUSTO
MONG
BALIKAN?
* si feb 11 2004 or si April 6 2005

03. BAKIT?
* si feb 11, sobrang love ko sha, kaso ang
layo layo nya. si april 6 naman, well, wala
kasing closure eh.
04. PINAKILALA KA BA NG EX MO SA
PARENTS NYA?
* may mga iba na pinakilala, some, walang
chance

05. BAKIT KAYO NAG-BREAK?
* LDR(long distance relationship),
magcoconcentrate daw sa skul, etc.

06. SA PALAGAY MO MINAHAL KA NG EX
MO?
* shempre nman!

07. ANONG GUSTO MONG SABIHIN SA EX
MO
NA NAGPAPARAMDAM PA RIN SA IYO?
* hi hello! sana nga kung nagpaparamdam
eh.

08. BAKIT YUN ANG SINABI MO?
* para malaman nya na interested pa rin
ako sa kanya!

09. PAANO KUNG AYAW KA NIYA
TANTANAN?
* e di mas mabuti. ehehe

10.OK LANG BA NA MAGING
MAGKAIBIGAN
KAYO NG EX MO?
* ok lang kung hindi mo na mahal. or kung
lagi nalang feeling nya na sya yung tama
dahil lang naging kayo, mas mabuting wag
nalang maging fwends.

11. MAY NAGING BEST FRIEND KA BA NA
NAGING GF/BF MO?
* friend lang.

12. MASASABI MO BA SA SARILI MO NA
NAGING MABUTI
KANG GF/BF SA EX MO?
* yup. because i know i always give my
110% in relationships.

13. NAGBAGO KA NA BA?
* in a way, yes. based on experiences with
heartaches and stuff.

14.ILAN NA BA ANG NAPAIYAK MONG
LALAKI/BABAE?
* ewan ko kung umiiyak talaga o crocodile
tears lang.

16. INIYAKAN MO RIN BA SILA?
* ha! kailangan pa bang imemorize yan?
lahat kya sila!

17. MUSTA K NAMAN NGAYON?
* ok lang naman. enjoying singlehood

18. KUNG MAGING EX MO DEN ANG
PRESENT
MO? ANO
GAWIN MO?
* yun nga yun. wlang present

19. ANO PINAKAMAGANDANG
NATUTUNAN MO
SA EX MO?
* na hindi ako worthless na tao. na i could
love and feel loved at the same time

20. MESSAGE NMAN KUNG SAKALI NA
MABASA NYA 2..
* kamusta naman? (^_^)

I had my break today. Well, an almost break. Had to go to Warner Bros. office to meet our interviewee, Sir Jay Gonzales for our PR class. Went well, I guess. I was in awe when I entered the office and has movie posters of such. Tsaka na kwento sa life nya, basta si Sir Jay, imagine nyo nalang, Columbia Pictures at Warner Brothers Pictures, pinag-aagawan sya. Lufet to the nth level. Mela and I planned to take pictures of his office, work and stuff. Unfortunately, we were so flattered that we went speechless when we met his for his calling card. What a lame situation. And the plan blew up. Argh. Anyway, I just have to be creative while doing the finals with it. He’s so kewl!

I wanna be an Ortigas or Ayala officegirl in the near future. Kamusta naman diba? But really, I was amazed of the buildings that it made me wonder how it is to work there. At mas kamustahin natin ang dami ng cuties wearing their office attire and being neat and all. OMG, my feet is already on air.

So anyway, since we have the whole time for ourselves and a little pampering, Mela and I went to the girl’s bestfriend. Yup, MALL where else? Walked from Wynsum Plaza to Galleria since its just a corner away. And actually spent 3 hours there. Saw Kelly Misa at Topshop and Jackie Lou Blanco. Kadiri pa kasi when we saw Jackie Lou, I was like, "ay Mela, si Jackie Lou Blanco". Imagine my semi-loud voice naman! But she smiled naman, being a celebrity and all.

But the greatest achievement goes to the both of us because we haven’t been lost! Sorry naman, its just an accomplishment because we usually forget roads and all. Well, one time lang naman sa elevator ng Wynsum. Is it our fault that they have 30 or 40 floors, and separate elevators at the back, where it wouldn’t be visible for first-timers? Fortunately, the guys told us that we were in the wrong elevator. Pasensya, nangangain pala ng tanga yung building na yun. ***********************

"YOU HAVE TO PROMISE YOU WON’T FALL IN LOVE WITH ME"

Wala lang, guess the movie.. sorry, A Walk to Remember hung-over.

gotta go, try to do business journ article.

and im out.

I thought I missed Valentine’s Day.

Well, since I felt it was that dreadful, I planned on staying stuck on my bed, but then, I have classes so I can’t really avoid it. Tried to smile most of the time during the jeepney rides, but then there were women that are holding flowers, estimating to maybe 350 pesos per bouquet that made me kinda sad because I haven’t received those big bulks before.. ever..

Just when I thought it was kinda safer at school, I saw these high school students who were also holding these humongous bouquets. Thank you very much, my face is absolutely rubbed in.

But I’m not giving up on the concept of love, yumayaman lang ang mga nagtitinda sa Dangwa at mga motels tuwing Heart’s Day! Anyway, I once said to my former boyfriend that I don’t need flowers. I prefer teddy bears and stuff. Haha!

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Went to Congress yesterday with Jam and Ruby. It’s unbelievable how heart’s day could change one’s attitude, especially in a government establishment. Nope, no bouquets anymore, but guards and police are kinda behaving more courteous than ever. Well I guess I have to be thankful na rin. It’s just that when Jam and I went to DOH for the second time, the guard kinda harrassed us. That we should’ve brought a letter daw, samantalang, its for the public to know about what’s happening, etc. And besides, our parents are paying taxes for us to acquire sources from them right?

But anyway, Congress. It’s cool because we didn’t bring any letter or such to research, well, were required to bring one to access their library, but since we were asked to go to the Bills and Index Section, we found the not-so-approved bills for our study. And they were accomodating. No letters whatsover anymore.

So yun, no plans of burning one house there. Haha! Only one person knows what I mean. And were not exactly on speaking terms anymore since he doesn’t know me well and shouldn’t interfere in my life ever again. Don’t ask anymore. Oh, it’s your birthday today. nyarnyar.

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My printer’s never gonna work smoothly again, I think. And I’m positive my mom’s not gonna buy me one again. OMG! I so have a life! hehehe!

Gotta go finish other work, and friend’s stuff. Lord, please let me breathe! catch ya’ll later!=)

I’m intrigued by some guy who’s two years younger than my age.

Sang at my tita’s churchmate’s debut. Was cool. I sucked a bit but I guess they haven’t noticed. And felt good because there are a number of cute guys. Problem is, I’m already their ate. (~_~)

So there, at first, it felt so awkward but after the party and the program, of course, there is a dance. Was nice because I was a hit with all those guys. But this one person keeps on staring and (I guess) would wanna dance with me too. But he’s just too shy. And Kapoof! that’s it, no closure whatsoever. He was cute, but younger, he likes music, just like me. It’s just so sad that I wasted my time dancing with other guys but he didn’t even tried asking me. Maybe we would’ve hit off. Well, it’s just a possibility. I’m just quite happy that some people are actually interested. Unlike, well, some.. whatever.

But I’m perfectly fine. And I missed Lovapalooza’s coverage. And that’s good since I feel sucked up with the feeling of love right now. At least I had an excuse instead of having to see couples kiss. And I had fun while sulking about the possibility that I would spend Valentine’s Day (again) with my friends.

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Downfall was, I never got to watch Gilmore Girls and haven’t known what really happened between Logan and Rory. aww..

Can’t sleep right now. Maybe because I don’t know where I stand. I feel as if I’m in this big crowd where people are saying so many things that I should do but I can’t just hear nor understand them. Where I can’t help but be dictated since I can’t find my own voice. I don’t know. It’s weird right? It’s more like a dream and I am more than willing to wake up.

Or maybe I’m just feeling down but youre not exactly picking me up in the right place. And I’m really scared because I might fall hard again. And wouldn’t raise myself anymore. Sadly, no amount of chocolates could help me with that dilemma. argh.

gotta go. pending skulwork.crap again.

I know I should focus on my PR Prelims, but I am really affected by this one.

I saw a familiar face yesterday afternoon and the day before. I thought it was a case of mistaken identity, but I was so wrong. You see, USTe held this 3-day job fair for Thomasians to take part, submit their resumes and have a bright future after graduation. See, this familiar face isn’t from the school. So I have to question the validity of him being there. Or let’s just say that he’s there for something else, but then, I really hope I didn’t see him.

In case you wanna ask who this person is?

1. he’s an ex’s friend. Ha! met him once, and I do find him nice. But since the "breakup", I really can’t describe one’s group as nice. Hope you got my point taken.

2. he’s the current boyfriend of my ex’s ex-girlfriend. You see, this girl is probably my most loathed one, even though I haven’t met her yet. Why? simple. Because I’ve been competing with her in my ex’s eyes. When heck, there’s nothing worth competing for.

I just see him as an extension of my ex and this girl. I’m just bothered because I’m seeing how small of a world I’m living in. I’m just not used to seeing the past. Or let’s just say the people that are part of my past shouldn’t be visible anymore. I think I’m gonna throw up.

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Anyway, so many stuff has happened these past days. Still hectic, but still sane thank God. have been in text marathons with Deejay but seems that I’m neglecting him everytime I text him then not realizing that I’m already falling asleep. And well, I hate it when I do that to other people too.

Lovapalooza is hours away but I excused myself for not going. Have plans. No date whatsoever, but I have a very important engagement so to speak. My tita dragged me to sing at someone’s debut, whereas i could say no good words about her since I haven’t met her yet. And imagine my tita saying I should prepare a number of songs since she knows I’m good at that. No flaunting intended, I was just invited.

Well, that was a good excuse to get out of Roxaz Blvd. traffic, kissing couples and a whole lotta headache caused by love. OMG, I think Ruby has infected me of being the Valentine Grinch. But then again, I still love the idea of being in a relationship and the magic that it possesses.

And by the way, I’m on mIRC ban. Promised myself and crossed a pinkie with Deejay that I wouldn’t resort to it again. And wouldn’t give my number to strangers, NO MATTER HOW INTERESTING THEY MIGHT BE!

Job fair was….fair. I guess. There are companies who doesn’t need us, and that makes it disappointing. But since ABS CBN and GMA are there, and other companies who are in need of PR Persons, Copywriters, etc, I think we would all do fine. =)

Gotta go focus on my Press Releases. Lord Please let me make justice out of it! XD