supergoddess writes

Last Saturday, Mela and I watched Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. It was great! I must say the best Harry Potter film. I mean, yung visuals niya and everything. Unlike the third movie na parang minadali at kung anu-ano pinaggagagawa nila.

Hermione was so pretty at the ball.

Harry naman looks matured na. Shempre, we cried at the last scene, the third test. Kakatawa kasi pati pala si Mela umiiyak na. Nung tinanong ko siya, "grabe naiyak ako dun ah" sabi nya, "ako din".

Cedric was divine.

…I dont like Cho Chang. I mean, Katie Leung. She isn’t pretty at all. Chubby pa. Blah.

I was disappointed kasi sa book sobrang ganda ng description nya tapos ganun lang pala sa movie! sana si Heart na lang (kidding!). Kahit anti-heart kami

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tata.

I’ve been having weird dreams these past few days and it involves Sam Milby.
I’m not kidding. I wish I were but this morning, when my mom’s waking me up, I find it hard to get up and just told her, "Sorry Ma, nananaginip pa ko eh, tapos nandun si SAM!" Ibang level diba? Nababaliw na ko because of the past incidences.

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We’ve already met all our professors. Some look nice, but I’m terrified at some. I actually liked Sir Al Dimalanta for reasons that, he likes to kid around, he practices PR, and he has a band. Ang cool kasi I’ve never known a professor who plays loud music. I’ve never heard them yet, but I just think it’s cool!

Second favorite, Mam Sese. Ewan ko, but unlike Mam Verdeflor, she doesn’t bore me to death. And she likes to watch PBB. Sabi pa niya, "8:30 papauwiin ko na kayo para maabutan nating lahat yung Big Brother!" and believe me, she really meant it. At kamusta naman ang pagsayaw niya sa Pinoy Ako diba?
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Before I wrap things up, I don’t know if you’ll ever read this, but I’m taking the chance, siguro naman after posting it to three blogs, you’d somehow stumble to one.

"I’m slightly affected of what you said last Sunday. I’m confused of your intentions of telling me that because even though we are friends, there’s just some things that I don’t really need to know. But not replying to you means I’m still unsure of what your feelings are. And I don’t want to ruin everything especially now, if by chance, you are still weak and you need a friend. But I just can’t be that friend right now, because everytime I come to your rescue, I always end up being hurt and confused.

And I think I’m not that vulnerable anymore, because if I still am, I would gladly open my arms to you and forget everything you did to me. But I can’t do that anymore. And I don’t wanna be like that anymore. I’ve suffered enough so I think it’s just time I ignore you.

I know you’re not really coming back because we’ve been through that a lot of times. And I’ve pondered that if you really liked me, or even love me, noon pa lang naging tayo na ulit. Hindi ako nagfi-feeling, I’m just forcing myself to be swayed again."

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After all, I have this load in my hands.

And I’m logging off. ‘Ciao!

Last night, I felt so lonely and alone after being with my bestfriend. I just don’t know what’s gotten into me that I also began feeling that way throughout the whole day. Friends have noticed that I haven’t been in my cheery mood today. And somehow, I couldn’t realy give them the exact answer. I guess I’m tired of the daily routines that its actually leading me to my depression.

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I know I shouldn’t really feel bad, but I really do. It’s  been a chore waking up in the morning. And I’m unsure of the reasons. I hate to feel this way. Makes me think I’m useless and all.

Adding to my insanity is not being with my friends for that SEAgames volunteer thingie. I just don’t wanna feel left-out and all. Ano pa kaya sa future graduation diba? I’ll  be more alone na talaga. Argh, I hate this.

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Have to catch my last class. tata!