supergoddess writes

that’s why i dont understand, why im feeling so bad now, when i know it was my idea,i couldve just denied the truth and lied..why am i the only one standing, stranded on the same ground

i really cant believe why Kitchie Nadal’s songs stuck me all time.. they always have this connection to reality.. and worse, its my reality..pero as ive said, i dont wanna be bitter or intend to be bitter anymore..

i feel bad right now because even though im happily surfing the net, i havent had real work in a week now.. this isnt real work talaga..i intend to write during this OJT naman noh..pero nothing happened.. i just hope na sa last week ng OJT ko, i could do something productive..something that UST could be proud of me..because that’s not happening right now..

right now, im doing a content analysis.. CONTENT ANALYSIS?!? gawain ba ng journ intern yun? i aint complaining, but there is a problem somewhere..i didnt apply her to make a thesis.. i want to do a journalistic job right now..not just encoding articles..nyahaha..

i thought i saw Carrie Bradshaw (sarah jessica parker) joining the American Idol..hehehe..duh? wild imagination Ria..so wild..it was the Carrie (american idol finalist) pala..pareho kasi silang blonde..sorry..

flickr is down today..but i signed up for multiply.com.. i needed a system where i could store my photos and other addiction..and multiply made it all happen for me! hahaha..super..

gotta go..am talking nonsense again..grr..

im so excited for saturday.. i mean, it would be the first time in a long time that our kada– XZENOPHILLIA QUIXOTICS would go out on a gimmick..and my first time to join them in an outing..

Grotto Vista Resort..ive been there a lot  of times since we live minutes away from it..i just couldnt believe that i could now go there with my friends.. hahaha…finally!!!

here is one of the pools there..

   and another one!..

and more so..

so anyway, ive been promoting my article last sunday.. just click here to see..Ria’s article_Career Times

im so thrilled..well i really have to go..hearing thunders coming now..

LOL!

so psyched that i got published again yesterday for the CAREER TIMES.. it is so cool to have my name for the byline again.. and this time, it was all mine! hahaha! so greedy..but im not so happy this moment coz i got assigned to a different section again..this time, Business Section here i come.. i just hope i could give justice to the article/articles that i would do because im nervous that i may not give what the section needs..

BTW, i could finally get a manila times id..heller! when i have only two weeks here! im so pissed at myself.. i mean, i didnt even asked Mr. Allan for it earlier.. tapos wala pa raw kaming time cards and stuffs.. good luck na lang kung ma-count ang three weeks of slaving ko.. bad news for Jasmin coz she isnt here right now and i cant fill out her particulars for her ID..i guess she should just follow it up tomorrow..

feeling sobrang freelance intern talaga ako..arrgh..its a good thing i saw Chad Michael Murray’s pic or else..newsroom would be a drag right now..im also hoping that our saturday gimmick would start na.. i feel so tamad every Saturday eh.. at least ngayon swimming galore..finally naman at makakapag-swimming na noh..

sign out mode muna..=P

i so love my ojt and i so love Miss Tessa.. because i opened her Press Releases and stuff, she gave me this Star Wars limited edition shirt..nina was bribing me to give it or sell it to her..im so sorry but i just couldnt..i mean, it was the only souvenir (aside from my grade), that the Manila Times could give to me.. i wish that in the future, i could also be a lifestyle editor..or really work in the lifestyle section of any magazine or hopefully in the Manila Times na rin.. sobrang dami nung perks..and i love writing feature stories pa than write hard news..

but first things first..i still have to graduate then attain my future career.. basta i so love it here..actually parang ayaw ko na nga pumasok eh..but reality bites my friend..

well, have to go check on other stuff..hope to get published tomorrow.=)

got a message from a friend whom i havent talked for months now..actually, i sent him a friendster message kasi..i never thought that he would reply to it since feeling ko, wala pa ngang nangyayari, eh dinump na ko agad..oh well, i know i should be a good sport from now on.. i dont wanna come around chasing guys whenever they leave me.. minsan nga feeling ko, relationships are just games waiting to be played..if it doesnt work out, just try the other ones who are waiting for them to be won.. anyway, i still have a lot of time for it. im just nineteen.. pero seriously i miss the times when i wake up every morning and hoping to see someone who would make my day complete, or someone who holds my hand and never let it go until its time to part. minsan nga naiisip ko kung loser nga talaga ko at hindi nagtatagal ang relationships na binibigay sa’kin.. but pinromise ko nga na magiging optimistic na about it.. and i guess its much better this way that im sparing my heart to be broken again..and until im ready to be in love again, at least i could tell him that ive waited long enough and i wish that it would never end anymore..=)

***pic from Windstruck..how i love playing it over again..=)

"if it doesnt hurt, they wouldnt call it a crush"

got this line from one of the stories in Chicken Soup for the Teenage Soul 3.. although it really doesnt hurt right now coz i’m enjoying having the "crush" (probably because were inhaling the same air right now and smiles at me once in a while), i know that i would eventually have to stop crushing him once this ojt stops and go back to school for classes..

i couldnt believe how i talk right now. i have no intentions of falling for him because he is years older than me, he’s really successful right now and im doubting if he would like me this way. thank you very much, i know im not so pretty, but i couldnt believe in fairy tales right now, im not Cinderella..

i cant believe that i’m saying this on the first day that im crushing on him.

bite me please!

i hate myself for hating someone who doesnt even know i exist..im feeling stupid for her..i loathed (past tense!) her but i think ill be over this.. ganito kasi yun eh

mahal kita—mahal mo sya—di mo lang sure kung mahal ka niya

selfish di ba? o biased lang talaga ko?

uncertainty is my middle name right now.. i know that i should stop loving him because im not being fair with my relationships to other people but i really cant help wondering if it didnt end that way. at ang malupit pa dun, SAKIN TALAGA NANGHINGI NG ADVICE!! relationship guru ba ko? im sorry kung ngayon lang ako nagreklamo, but its ok na..tanggap ko na na kinakapatid nalang ako..ang saklap..amp!!!!

pero ok rin lang ulit dahil happy ako to be single..after a long time, i finally realized that eventhough im in this state right now, i could be contented..and im having my cake eaten too…=)

so yun, perks ng OJT ko? i think my first article would be published soon..and im really wishing to finish my second one..as in right now..but how could i kung nadiscover ko na makakapagfriendster pala ko sa Manila Times..arrgh..tamad mode na naman..

o nga pala, fiesta sa sunday samin..nope, im not inviting, im just freakin’ telling… but exempted si bubut..dalhin mo si jasmin huh! para naman mabulabog na naman yung haus namen..harhar!

and i found out that teddy bear finally went back to Australia..oh well, i guess ang status talaga ay napaka-saklap na FRIENDS…grrrh!

i just wish matuloy ang swimming ng xzeno..low profile:Grotto Vista lang naman..pero himala dahil nagvolunteer si mamah na sa guada kami magstay afterwards..she loves me talaga…oi, pumunta kayo..lalo na cla julborn…bez? o baka sabihin mong nagfi-feeling bezfriend ka na naman..puhleez! im tired of that..magbago ka naman ng linya!!

and right now, im just happy that my life doesnt suck..Thank you very much!

my ojt in times was not so awesome, but fair enough, i get to write in one of the oldest newspapers in the country..maam nini was great, and maam leah too..i just wish i have one classmate there..oh well, i guess now i have to work solo..

i really miss my ex-teddy bear..i wish i couldve been with you this moment..but you left me here..oh well, tama na ang drama..its so un-me!!